I am not a Citizen, I am a Target . . .

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I tired . . . I tried so hard to just stay quiet about this . . . So many things I wanted to say or point out, I even kept quite last time when Trayvon Martin was murdered . . . . But not this time . . . How many more young black males will be murdered before something is done . . .

For those not in the know, On August 9, 2014, Michael Brown, an unarmed black 18-year old resident of Ferguson Missouri, was shot and killed by Officer Darren Wilson, who is white. For months now there have been protests, some violent, most peaceful. All leading up to whether or not the officer would be charged for the shooting . . . . Michale Brown was not only unarmed but had both of his hands up when he was shot at close range at least 6 times . . . And the results are in today . . . He's not guilty . . . . Once again it's okay for the slaughter of young black men like myself and it is justifiable . . . What angers me is this is damn sure not the first time this shit has happened and it ultimately saddens me that this will not be the last time it does happen . . . 

I was so frustrated when I heard the verdict . . . So many times when I was in high school my mother would beg me not to go out too late and if I did to not walk home and just wait for her to pick me up . . . I would tell her "Ma, your tired and your busy, I can walk
" But she refused and insisted that she pick me up. Because even with all of her aches and pains and her busy schedule, her heart felt more at ease knowing that her child's life was in her hands and not at the hands of the police . . . 

How fucked up is it that i don't trust the police at all. They strike fear in ours and most American communities. I know of countries where the police actually work with their community and care about their citizens (And Please don't misinterpret me, i certainly don't mean ALLL cops) But the majority of ours I can't trust even a little bit . . . Cause I've dealt with how they view me as a young black male . . .And its not right . . SO fuck those fucking coppers, they don't give a damn about me or my family or my people so why should I respect their organization . . .

One day they could murder my older brother . . . leave his young wife widowed and alone just because he's driving at night . . . One day they could murder my little brother . . A bright, caring, and loving boy just because he likes to wear hoodies . . .one day they could murder me . . .
They could kill me and get away with it . . . You guys probably wouldn't even know it . . . I would just disappear one day and never get to talk with you guys about nerdy stuff or laugh with you guys about what are OCs are doing or just tell you guys at how thankful you are all my friends . . . I would be killed and destroyed, leaving a hole in my family  . . . . All because I'm black . . . Drives me crazy that in 2014 not a damn thing has truly changed when it comes to race relations . . . All I am is just another nigger to these people, thats all my family and alot of my friends are to them . . . not American citizens . . . Just targets in their slow but steady genocide . . .

I won't be silent this time, just letting this anger and frustration be bottled up is not healthy! I will sit here and type what I wish i could scream at those who are in doubt, Darren Wilson is guilty of murder! He should be in jail for what he did, but no . . . Just like George Zimmerman he is free . . . Just like all of the people who would lynch innocent blacks in the past and get away with it . .

I hope you never feel this anger that i feel . . . The feeling that you are looked down upon just because of who you are or how you look .  . . Its feels awful . . . I may make jokes and play around with my little race jokes but you know what I truly mean when it comes down to this . . . I am a Black American, and a proud one and I will not be silent this time around . . .
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Axel230's avatar
OK, this got me curious and made me read about this case from multiple sources, opposite biases, and I've come to a conclusion:

This is a simple case of a mugging that was blown out of proportions by the "Racism" card.

On one side the victim was no white dove (Pun not intended): color aside he was a shoplifter. The police officer was doing his duty by going after a person that fit the description of the suspect; then there was the physical struggle with the cop which no matter how you look at it seems fishy. Still, 12 shots IS an overkill no matter the situation.

So in the end neither of the sides is completely free of guilt: this man wasn't really innocent and, armed or not, was behaving questionably. But a cop that freaks out in such a situation shouldn't be free of charge either (Final verdict is bogus, but for different reasons to what you say). It's a complicated case on itself and yet... add "racism" to the equation and things go out of hand very quickly.

I can tell you had a hot head when you wrote this but this is an overreaction. Yes, racism is still heavy (Try tell me racial profiling isn't real when they've set the hounds on me just for being on a bike and been called a terrorist several times, those guys :XD:) and police corruption doesn't help, but well, what can I say? Life sucks, deal with it.

On the bright side, change is gradual, you gotta look at the big picture: it's still really bad but it's better than it was 50 years ago. Let's be honest: we will not live to see a world where there's no racism but we're getting there. I've come to accept it sucks to be us but well, we're the transition stage.

PS: Riots: definitely not helping this case and seem more like a step backwards to me -.-